Well I just thought bronchitis…

So why is it as adults when we get sick we get really sick! So what was diagnosed as bronchitis is now pneumonia. And we all know when we are sick our resolve is lower, our feelings are heightened and we can’t run away from responsibility. And sometimes we feel alone.

My mom has helped me so much from taking me to the doctor as I was to weak to drive. She took my son to work. She has been great! I am very thankful for her. To be divorced as long as I have been it is very eye opening to navigate this world when one was sick.

It makes you think about how we try to be everything to everyone and juggle all that we do and we let ourselves get run down. Make ourselves more susceptible to germs, to not bounce back like we once did. It makes one realize we should take better care of ourselves with diet and sleep and less stress. (and I have this diet down pat until steroids have been injected and ingested and inhaled due to my lungs having an invader! Down 16 pounds and still staying on WW despite these damn steroids). To stop pushing so hard. I think we as women push harder and put more demands on ourselves. And sometimes I live in a little fantasy world where it would be nice to have someone sweep in and rescue a damsal in distress and carry the load for just a bit.

So as I am in the heightened world of steroids, forgive my ramblings. But maybe listen to my ramblings. Maybe we should take better care of ourselves, that we should find more joy, that we give ourselves permission to not push so hard all the time. That we let somebody walk beside us for joy and laughter and support and realize we matter. And that we are more than just all the jobs we do for everyone, that we have to take care of ourselves or we won’t be good for anyone. So please everyone stay well, take your vitamins, hand sanitizer and most of all forgiveness for ourselves when we hit a wall and need a chance to feel better.

There are more thoughts rumbling through this brain so hang on tight all. Stay well and stay happy!!