So how has everyone been? I keep promising to blog more, but with work being extremely short, one kid graduating high school and off to college, another kid who is adjusting to his sister leaving. Family functions and some things just too much to go into, life has just been crazy.
So saying all of that, I do find myself evaluating and thinking too much. Thinking about all that I am not sometimes and sometimes thinking too much. Wishing there was more of me to go around and this battle of how I wish there were times other people would give more of themselves and I would give a little less.
I have always been told I am a people pleaser? How about you? I dont like conflict, sometimes it is easier to just go on and not say anything. Sometimes it can all build up as well. It isn’t our responsibility to make someone else happy. I saw a meme once that said you cant make everyone happy as you are not tequila. I don’t think being a people pleaser is all bad, I think when you loose yourself in the process–well that is exhausting.
Probably what is the most exhausting part is when you give so much and there is little return. You talk to people and sometimes they talk about everything and never once ask about you. Or people want you there for them but can’t seem to be there for you. Our society has turned into a ME ME world and a less of US world. How did that happen? How did we forget to extend the hand of friendship, to show love to those who are difficult to love, hell just saying hello to someone, throwing them a little attention on social media, just showing simple compassion and care. I talk to women all day long, in different stages of life, different ages, different backgrounds. The struggles of life and relationships, motherhood and the desire to become a mother. It makes one think how women and men are so different and how we communicate and handle things. Women are like a computer in some ways. We have alot of tabs open everyday and retrieve and input data from ALL the files all day long. Men, in my limited and humble experience, are task oriented and seem to have less tabs open and a place and time for everything. In no way is that a bad thing, it just is one of many differences. There are days where some feel like they may scream if one more person needs a piece of them–attention, physical, emotional, intellect, time, patience, their presence. Then the flip side of the coin is those that want the chance to have someone to have in their life to experience all that.
So this rambling train of thought has made me think that in this fast paced society, there is so much hurt, lonliness, unfaithfulness, jealousy and the list goes on. In a world where everything is at our fingertips except for the hand to hold and the heart to touch. There may be quick thrills and moments of passion and longing and moments of dealing with choices that effect us for years to come. We have the ability to communicate at a moments notice, but we have forgotten how to talk to each other. We forgot about honest communication and simple pleasures. Life doesnt have to be a grand production om the world stage for people to watch, but perhaps we have that encore performance one on one. Maybe if we spent more time with those our heart beats for, that we open ourselves to be open and raw. To communicate our heart’s desire, to just once slow down in this crazy life and smell the roses and just enjoy life a moment at a time.
